Posting to this blog has slowed down over the past week or so. Been mostly heads-down at work getting things done (which is a very good thing).

I haven't sat zazen in a couple of days. I kinda miss it. There have been some times during the day when I've sat zazen for a few minutes and I could just feel my body release into my breathing. That feels good. I actually like how I feel (physically) when I sit zazen. Psychologically and emotionally is another story. Sometimes it is SO DIFFICULT just sitting there with the crap flying though my head. But that's to be expected. During my normal day I do a lot of things out of habit to escape from feeling those things (food, coffee, internet surfing, etc.).

My schedule has made it difficult to sit on a daily basis. At least that's what I'm telling myself today (me thinks that in truth, if I really wanted to sit I would find the time). My most opportune time is in the evenings after Amy is in bed, the dog has been walked and the kitchen is all cleaned up. That's the time the wife and I usually just collapse on the sofa and reach for the clicker. We're usually stuck there till 10p or 11p when we drag our selves upstairs for the bedtime routine and then lights out. Did this again last night despite my intention to go upstairs early and sit zazen for 15 - 20 minutes. I just allowed myself to be sucked into the back-to-back episodes of Law and Order. I swear I'm addicted to that show. I was especially disappointed last night after we finished watching the shows only to realize that when we stopped to think about it, the shows weren't very good. Felt like a waist of time.

Oh well... today's a new day. Let's see what I can make of it.